Today, I attended the wedding of some very dear friends while my husband officiated. This was the perfect early October afternoon for a wedding. The ceremony was beautiful and the bride was spectacular. One moment in particular captured my heart in such a way that I began to reminisce on my own wedding day over six years ago.
Just after the “I do’s”, the bride and groom stood and looked lovingly into one another’s eyes as the song “When I say I do” played. I know what you’re thinking, but this was not the old Clint Black classic. Instead, this was a song by Matthew West, proclaiming “I have never been so sure of anything before, like I am in this moment here with you”.
Looking at this beautiful couple, knowing their story, I was sure that these words reflected exactly what they felt. I’m also sure that these words were my exact sentiment the day I walked down the aisle and became a Mrs. But I also know that there have been so many days in between when I wasn’t so sure. Because there have been many days I thought of myself above my husband, days when I put my own desires above my marriage. When I said ‘for better or for worse’ on the day I was married, I’m not sure that I really believed that the ‘worse’ days would come. But they did.
I’m not saying I have an unhappy marriage. I’m saying I have a normal marriage. A relationship in which two sinners are married to one another. A relationship in which I sin against my husband and need forgiveness and grace. And vice versa. So I was very glad to hear the rest of the lyrics to this song: “I pray every day will be the proof that I mean what I say when I say I do”.
You see, our marriage would never have survived without a God who answers prayers. A loving, faithful God who teaches us to love and be faithful even when we don’t feel like it. Even when we have worse days. I’m so thankful for his mercy and grace, and that I have a husband who reflects that same mercy and grace to me every day.
I love weddings! I love that they remind me of the wonders of marriage. I love that God ordained marriage. And I love being married to my husband.